Saturday, March 18, 2006

no one kissed me/i'm irish

yeah just got back from the bar for st. patrick's day. i just have to get some things out, no judgements, i dont' care if theres feedback; i'm only mildly drunk. i dont know why i have to say these things but i do.
-why are men not interested in me-why am i so insignificant-why cant i make up my mind-why am i so fat-why am i going back to that 6th grade place-i hate that place-i hate that place-im ugly there-sometimes isleep on the livingroom couch so it will feel like theres someone beside me-why am i so pathetic-why do i feel bad for myself-why do i abuse my own body-why dont i respect myself-i could love someone why dont they love me.