masala does a body good

just finished eating dinner; rachel made naan, masala, samosas....all very very good. i need to write more--things seem to be getting to me lately. and i'm really worried about this bipolar thing, because i've been going from extreme highs (which are the good days) and extreme lows (which are pretty scary). and my new mantra of the month is not to use food as a reward. it's not; it keeps people alive, and i shouldn't let myself eat junk as some sort of prize for having a hard day. that's really fucked. i'm trying to stick with the EAS "body for life" program, which is really a full-time-job but feels great when i do it right. at the moment, it's operation kick my own ass into amazing shape, and i believe i can do it if i can steer clear of these insanely stressful moments where i just lose it. eh, i dunno what i'm even talking about.

things otherwise are going great--performed last week at the pacific design center for an industrial. jan brady was there. it was a fantastic night and i had so much fun with my new little dance crew. we worked in conjunction with jane ann ryan productions, who basically RULES all the cruise lines and some major award shows (most networks) and i'm happy i met the big dog. god i need to actually dance more. work is great like always, and i'm sad that the position at FUSION can't be a job after graduation, not until we book with any regularity. i'm still up for pouring my heart and soul into it, though. what else can i update...i miss my fam; they got a dog. i'm insanely jealous but i know that all these things will happen in time. the best would be if the future mr. comes with a dog already attached. :)

well, here's to gearing up for a rocky and completely unplanned as-of-yet summer: there'll be teaching, graduating, weddings, travel and moving here permanently. i can't do it alone, but i have my roomies, my real friends, my family, and my heart. wish it well!
love to everyone...
**pics are from st. patty's and diane von furstenberg, where we went to a VH1 save the music party--daisy fuentes and the donna's, anyone? i bought a cute dress there, at least, and ally WON a dvf dress worth over $400.